I don’t know exactly how to start this introduction, so I’ll jump right into it! I go by IffyBiffy for two reasons: 1) A big part of the Username was a nickname my Mimi used to call me 2) and I’m almost always Iffy about something! I’m totally up for sharing about my problems with anxiety and the constant fight to keep my dark clouds away! Don’t be afraid to reach out to talk about either! 🙂
I was sitting in the laundromat with my twin thinking about how easy it was for me to reach out to my friends, write a blog post, and send out a few tweets. I even had the energy to read posts from bloggers that I follow. It’s just, I almost never do that these days. I feel so bad for my friends who are in contact all the time and they aren’t too exhausted to reach out. I was sitting there wondering why I’ve changed into this shell of a person and I realized that one of the main things that’s changed are the responsibilities I’ve had throughout each job.
You see, about 4 years ago I would have been going to community college and working part time at a pub/restaurant. I was only working as a host for a couple of years and I would do, maybe, 3-4 hours a shift for 4-5 days a week. Obviously I wasn’t making very much money but I didn’t have so much on my brain. I was doing a fairly simple task everyday and I didn’t have to think about it after I left my shift. I wasn’t over anyone and I was friends with most of my coworkers. Work wasn’t draining for me. And even when I went to the daycare, afterwards, I wasn’t over anyone. Sure, the job was more stressful and I had twice the hours but I still wasn’t as stressed. I wrote a little less and then I went to work at a hotel. Once I got the hang of my job and befriended some awesome employees, including my Disney obsessed former boss, I wrote even more. I had so much less to worry about and I made time for my friends. This move and promotion at the new hotel is big. I’m over a lot of people and I’ve never been in a managerial position in my life. I’ve told coworkers what to do before when I would train them but this is way different. I’m having to be constantly vigilant and worry about everything and everyone. I’m so drained that even making posts can get complicated. If I type more than one up on my day off I end up scheduling it so it doesn’t seem like I’m ignoring my blog.
I just have to ask, does anyone else go through this? Is there any advice to give? I like my job and I’m enjoying all the fun stuff I’m learning, I just wish I had more mental energy to focus on my friends/ family and my blog.
After months of working hard and being patient, my boss gave me a weekend off. Honestly, I was getting a little impatient. Normally, I don’t request weekends off because I don’t mind what days I have off. I’ll be doing most of the same things no matter what day. I don’t go out and party and if I travel it’s just to my brothers house in Alabama. That’s not far and since I usually see him on the weekdays, we don’t go out much as he has a Monday to Friday schedule at work. Still, it was nice to get the weekend off. I’d actually made a request for Friday and Saturday on behalf of my nephew turning 3 but she went ahead and gave me the weekend off.
But, of course, the hardest workers can’t have nice things. Both my general manager and I had plans to be out of town this weekend. We are at work constantly and just wanted to enjoy ourselves. I’m not sure what her plans were but she let us know she wouldn’t be at work for the weekend. Regardless, a coworker of mine that has been doing some serious slacking lately, decided to call out two days in a row and I almost didn’t go to Alabama this weekend. It got to the point where my GM did go in on Saturday just to relieve a coworker who’d already had to take his first shift. Needless to say, he’s on thin ice with the boss.
What’s even more annoying is that I’ve been on the other side of this situation. You know, the side that works 16 hours to cover the coworker who’s called out two days in a row. I understand the colleagues that are dealing with his mess and I feel bad for them. They’re exhausted. And he’s doing whatever the heck he’s doing. I won’t go into detail because I do know what he’s doing and so does the boss. I just hope we can find a good replacement fast because everyone is already exhausted.
But I will say that as worried as I was about leaving for the weekend, I’m glad I did. I had a bunch of fun and I’m not quite finished yet. It’s only 2pm on the final day. I’m with my twin at the laundromat since the water isn’t working at my older brother’s house. I had to take what my roommate and I affectionately call a “bitch bath” which sounds horrible but always makes me laugh. All I care about is I’m clean. I used to take bitch baths all the time when I’d wake up exhausted and wouldn’t feel like taking a whole shower. I’m just going to try and enjoy the rest of today before going back for the week.
Hope everyone is having a great Sunday! I think my clothes are done washing.
I don’t understand how people can just express themselves. Emotions are hard enough to understand, let alone tell others those feelings. My therapist is gonna get a load of all this on Friday. All our sessions have just been me talking about everything but my feelings and I get the feeling she’s getting tired of hearing about the crazy guests we get and how I feel about all my family members.
Y’all just send me some good vibes if you have any to spare, please. I’m at the edge, here.
The other day I was thinking about how much I’ve changed since middle/high school. I have to say, I would have enjoyed school much more with my current personality! I could barely hold a conversation much less start one about 5 years ago. Now, it can be difficult to get me to shut up! I love who I’ve become! It’s so fun to enjoy human interaction. Granted, I am still an introvert and my social battery does tend to run out on me at the least convenient times.
I still have to work on my confidence a bit more but that will come with more time. I still think it’s hilarious how bad I was at holding a conversation. I guess working customer service really helps you figure out how to talk to all sorts of people.
I just did my usual renewal of my WordPress plan and I’m still really hoping to upgrade to a more business-y platform so I can upload videos and get more help on personalizing my website.
Anyway, I am just trying to relax today because it’s my only day off and I still have like 30 more hours to work this week. I gave myself a cute little pedicure while watching TV (that’s right, my roomie and I bought a cheap TV to enjoy). -I’m really enjoying Brooklyn Nine-Nine.
I still need to clean out my clothes and donate what’s extra. I kind of want to change up my style again. But I’m not sure what to. Let me go ahead and end this here because it’s like 11pm…
I had myself a nice couple of days off this past week and when I came back it was like all hell had broken loose. I went from a relaxing Wednesday to working a bit of overtime the next two days. I got a normal 8 hour shift yesterday but it was so busy I swear I was there longer. Today, because yesterday was so busy, I was asked to come in early to help clean so I’ve been at work for roughly 5 hours so far. I still have 5 more to go. And I’m still not done working hard. This next week will be a 50-hour 6 day shift type of week. I’ll probably lose my mind but I’m sure I won’t be the only one.
Hope everyone else is enjoying their Sunday!
Well, mine is a cross between Lady in the Water and Coraline! I have watched those so many times I could quote them as they play. I used to have Coraline related dreams because I would fall asleep while the movie was playing.
What about you?
Mine is probably a mix between a blanket I have and a one of my favorite plushies I affectionately refer to as Moosh Moosh (it’s actually mosh mosh).
What about you?
That’s a tough one since some shows can actually pull the trope off. I usually don’t like anything that causes the audience second hand embarrassment. That’s a feeling I can’t take.
What about you?
I would like to. Sometimes I think everyone’s idea of afterlife is correct, just so everyone can be happy.
What about you?