Being in this relationship can be confusing

There are so many times when I think about the relationship I’m in being a bit much for me. I feel expected to want to be around my boyfriend all the time and any time we are alone, I become anxious because I know he’s thinking about sex. We’ve done it a couple times but I don’t get a lot out of it and after it I just feel awkward. Sometimes I’ll tell him I just don’t want to be touched and, for the most part, he’ll respect that. One of the times I told it, I was in pain from my period and he’d ask how I was feeling and give me a hug every once in a while which was nice but not what I’d wanted to begin with.

I get that lust is fairly normal for people but it’s so uncool when you don’t feel like being objectified and then someone comes along and talks about your butt. Woohoo… I have a butt. Okay.

Of course, there are other times when I do miss him and want to cuddle up to him. I’ll even want sex but I’ve noticed those times are whenever he isn’t around or when I’m drunk (sometimes both). I don’t like that I usually want these things when he isn’t around. It feels unfair to the both of us.

Published by iffybiffy

Hi! I started this blog to talk about exploring deeper into my mental health! I tend to understand things better as I write or type them down so there are time where things may not make sense to you but, fear not, it's just me understanding things. if you would like to get in contact with me, email me at iffybiffy100@gmail.com. See you online-

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