I’ve mentioned in a few of my posts that I have been dating someone and that I’ve had a hard time really opening up to him. It has, mainly, been because of my past experiences. I’ve been trying to push past them because I can’t hide behind them forever. Dodie would never accept that of me (ha). Anyway, about a month ago, he started really throwing some hard ball hints of wanting to have sex and I had, oddly enough, told myself that I really didn’t want to leave his house on that specific day until we’d had sex. The funny thing was, I had to leave at a specific time because I was about to babysit my nephew for the first time. Instead, I stayed almost a whole extra hour having sex and then talking. Like wow, how grown up am I? Don’t answer that…
The experience wasn’t bad. It, also, wasn’t as awkward as I expected it to be, but I’ve come to the conclusion that was because I let him take the reins. I will admit, I felt closer to him after our first time. I even talked with a few of my friends who told me they, too, felt closer to their beaus. I can say that I’m not in love, yet. I feel like that’s a topic for another day.
My next goal is to be a bit more open on giving my boyfriend tips to help me enjoy having sex. Send some good vibes my way.