I know what I wanna write about but I don’t wanna write it

I’ve been thinking about how much I enjoy spending time by myself. And I don’t even mean relationship wise. I’ve always liked the idea of building up a chunk of change and driving off to some rando destination and setting up shop wherever I can. I’ve even romanticised living in my car which is kinda not my thing. I need to be able to charge my electronics cuz I’m overly attached to them.

The thing is, I recently learned that my older brother and his family are planning to move to South Carolina, probably after a few more years. My brother and I have always dreamed about living in South Carolina because we’ve had great memories and that’s where a piece of our family that is really important to us lives. My dad’s side of the family still lives there and we have always held them close because they’ve never judged us and have been there for us and we’ve tried to be there for them. It’s difficult when you live so far away from each other, though. My mom’s side of the family has some roots in South Carolina, but they are the epitome of hillbilly and probable incest. I don’t hate my moms family (the ones that live near us), but I don’t really love a lot of them either. Most of them are homophobic or snooty (or both).

I don’t really have a big reason to stick around them, so I’d love to move closer to my dad’s side of the family. The thing is, I have a number of friends, my boyfriend, and my job here, so it feels like I shouldn’t be thinking about jumping ship. I can’t help it, though. South Carolina and the family there are making it very hard to like my current living situation.

Published by iffybiffy

Hi! I started this blog to talk about exploring deeper into my mental health! I tend to understand things better as I write or type them down so there are time where things may not make sense to you but, fear not, it's just me understanding things. if you would like to get in contact with me, email me at iffybiffy100@gmail.com. See you online-

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