I know I usually post a lot when I’m down but I was just too down last week. My birthday was just me choosing to be alone so I could nurse my mental wounds with Seagrams and Marlboros. I did get some money from my parents which turned into groceries. I finally felt like I’d hit a wall, so I turned to the local college for help which has a Psychological Service that helps train future psychologists and has assessments so you can find out what’s wrong with you. The good thing about this place is each visit is anywhere from $30-$60 because it’s on a sliding scale dependent on how much you make. Isn’t that neat? You get it cheaper cuz you’re getting a trainee psychologist. I assume there will be a legitimate psychologist there to help out and maybe that’s also why there’s a really long waitlist but we’ll see. I’m too broke to afford the other places I was suggested. They were around $160-$140 a visit, no thanks. Why is getting mental help so expensive?
Anyway, I’m starting to feel a bit more up, so I’m trying to seize the moment and do as much as I can. I’ve been up enough that I’m faster at work, so I’ve been getting out earlier and I’m spending the night at my beau’s house tonight and going running with him in the morning. (By the way, I’ve started walking and going to the gym) And then after that, I will spend the night at my older brother’s house to see them and the munchkin (nephew).
I’m just hoping my up stays for at least the rest of the year. Is that too much to ask?