I just got finished listening to dad’s tape. I gotta say, hard stuff. I was sure I was gonna cry but I didn’t. Instead, I kept noticing when dad’s voice would get shaky and when he’d get a little quieter. Like when a kid is asked to apologize for something they don’t want to apologize for. The topic was tough for him but his therapist said he needed to talk about it so instead of telling everyone multiple times, he just recorded it once. Of course, I’m sure he talked about it, but knowing him, it probably wasn’t enough times. I remember when I was a kid, I would ask dad why his leg wasn’t working all that well. I got told he was in an accident and also that he was hurt while in the army. Both were lies but were good enough that I never asked about it again until after he passed.
On a lighter note, it was my older brother’s b-day the other day! Wish the guy a happy birthday in the comments if you want to. Don’t ask how old he’s turning. Never ask a Mann how old their turning. It’s rude.
Also, other good news is that I’m not doing terribly at front desk like I thought I would. Once I master this shift, I need to learn how to do a laundry room shift and I’ll have learned how to do everything I can do. Cuz I can’t do maintenance or anything to do with manager stuff. I’m hoping to get a good raise after my 6-month review. That’s coming up at the end of the month although they haven’t said anything about it. Or maybe they mean like 6 months into the year, you get a review, and then another 6 until you quit or get fired… or die. Whichever comes first.