As I said in a previous post, I was going to get psychologically assessed to help to determine what the hell I’m dealing with. I won’t go far into detail because there are some things better left between the doc and I. Anyway, I went and saw her yesterday and it was the most pleasant doctors visit ever. Ignoring the fact that I was 10 minutes late cuz I could not, for the life of me, find the right building (in my defense there were many surrounding it). The doctor greeted me personally and offered beverages and snacks and then I did some paperwork before we jumped in.
I have to say, I was hella nervous at first. I’d been so focused on getting there in time since I had work earlier that I didn’t get a chance to rehearse what all I was gonna say. However, things worked it out, as they tend to do. I spilled all my delicious beans to her and she handled my green beans like the pro she is. She was super sweet and sympathetic and just all around awesome.
After explaining everything that I could think of her, including my family’s history with mental illnesses, she told me she had an inkling that it might be PTSD that I was dealing with. Judging by my symptoms which she wasn’t 100% that it was that because it also sounded like I was dealing with Anxiety, Depression, or possibly even ADHD. Since this was my first visit, she couldn’t say for sure. She wants to do some in person tests and I was given a personality assessment inquiry to fill out at home. The thing is 344 questions long… It took so long to fill out but I went ahead and got it over with since we will be meeting again on Monday.
I did explain that I will be moving in a couple weeks, so our next visit will be 1 1/2 hours long instead of just 50 minutes. By the way she sounded, I have a feeling we will know by the end of those minutes.
Okay, but I do kinda wonder about the ADHD. It would explain a lot. However, not many of my family members have actually gone and taken assessments, so the main thing I know that courses through our veins is a history of possible depression and anxiety. Most of my family just goes to their general practitioner and explains their issues. I don’t know if any of them have ever taken an assessment before. I guess I’ll do some digging.
I admit, I’m excited to see her again. She was so much fun and I felt like I could tell her anything. I pretty much did. I think my next step will be to get my twin brother to see her. I’ve told him about her and vice versa, so we will see.
Until then, I’ll see you online-