7-20-20

Wow, it’s already they 20th day of July! Holy cow!

So, there are some strangers in the house, today. Well, strangers to me. They’re here as handymen to fix a few things. They seem pretty chill and they look like they know what they’re doing. My roommates out buying a few things like bowls, plates, and maybe cups. General things we need but, for some reason, have waited until now to purchase. Can’t exactly eat all the groceries we just bought on nothing. Well, unless we eat straight from the pan. I need to finish up the dishes so our sink can be empty for the bowls and plates but I need to update you guys on my life first.

So, as I said in my last post, my cat Oreo has been missing since Thursday night and we still haven’t seen him. No one has called my number and I’ve asked a couple neighbors who haven’t seen him either. Roomie and I found a couple lost and found pages for our area on Facebook so we posted there, as well. I miss my buddy so much that I had a few dreams about him last night. But there isn’t anything I can do but wait and keep my eye out for him when I go out for runs.

As for work, I’m feeling that familiar annoyance with myself. I’m not as fast as the others at cleaning rooms and no one leaves until everyone is done. So, that’s not exactly a positive thought process for myself. I keep kicking myself for not being as fast, but I’m so hard-headed that right after I get off work I immediately think “I’ll be faster tomorrow” and I usually get roughly the same results. Although, it isn’t completely my fault. This job’s carts are smaller than my old ones. I can’t pile as much on there as I need. Plus, they don’t have as many sheets or towels like my old job. Towards the end of working at the old job, I almost never went downstairs to get anything and got done with my rooms at a roughly sensible time. Regardless, I just need to be faster. I keep overthinking and that slows me down. The coworkers are pretty chill, though.

I’m just trying not to remind myself that I have work tomorrow because I want to enjoy today, but it’s getting pretty difficult and I can feel the anxiety setting in. What’s worse about the anxiety is that the more I have of it, the less I eat. And I need food to have energy to work faster. But I can’t eat because I get stomach aches and it’s just one big cycle. I used to deal with this a lot when I first started at my old job. Eventually, I worked a different shift and had less anxiety and it also helped that I grew closer with my coworkers. I’m hoping something similar happens here.

As for the unpacking, I’m almost finished! I’ve unpacked all that I can until I can get a new desk. Otherwise, my desk stay will have to stay in their box. The thing is, I’m picky about my desks. None of the desks at the 2 Wal-Mart locations looked good enough. They were too thin with not very much storage space; however, I don’t like my desks being huge and clunky either. I’ll also need a chair which is funny because I haven’t had a desk chair in a few years. The way my desk was set up in the old house was that my bed was directly next to it so the bed was the chair. But that’s not been good for my back, so I need a chair. Plus, I actually have the room. My bedroom isn’t as small as I expected it to be. I bought a full-sized bed, worried that it would take up most of the room, but the room is bigger than I’d anticipated which is definitely not a complaint. I have a lot of blank wall, too. I’m not sure how I’ll go about decorating that because there is only so much we are allowed to do. It’ll be an adventure, nonetheless.

Okay, I hate to end this; however, I have dishes to wash and a laptop to charge. I hope everyone’s day is going well and I will see you online~

Published by iffybiffy

Hi! I started this blog to talk about exploring deeper into my mental health! I tend to understand things better as I write or type them down so there are time where things may not make sense to you but, fear not, it's just me understanding things. if you would like to get in contact with me, email me at iffybiffy100@gmail.com. See you online-

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