For the past few years, I’ve been toying with who I am and trying to really figure out what I need not what I want. It feels like I’m a frog jumping on different lily pads but then I turn around and jump back on the same one without realizing it. Thing is, that visit with the doctor seemed to really jimmy something loose in my brain. I know what I need but not quite the exact ways to get to it. Mostly because I’m jumping into unknown territory.
I don’t need to be with someone unless I am absolutely comfortable, whether that be us dating casually or just being around them in general. I need to go out and meet people. However, Coronavirus is still a thing, so maybe not right now. I was talking to my roommate and she actually suggested I get on Bumble because you can make the preference for friends, so I think I’ll give that a try. There’s less harm in messaging over the internet, maybe. As long as I’m not broadcasting my address or messaging toxic people. Or the one being toxic. Because, let’s not forget, sometimes we can be the toxic ones.
I’ve also been listening to different songs and I think Waiting for Superman by Daughtry is what I’m feeling right now.
