8-2-20

Oh, the joy of waking up on your day off. I cut up some watermelon and have started second breakfast. Roomie is home from her training shift at work and we had a little discussion about her and one of her friends. It was nice to hear her vent about it since I kinda forget she made friends while we went to different campuses of the same college. I wished I could have roomed with her but I had animals and they didn’t allow those.

We spoke about a mutual friend of ours last night that went through a loss. His pet passed away after many years of a wonderful life. Her health had been declining for a bit, so our friend knew she didn’t have much time left. He made sure she had the best life and she was loved immensely. Still, we both know his dog was pretty much a daughter to him. This will take some time before he starts to feel even a little okay. I messaged him a bit but I know he wants to be with his wife and let out his emotions, so I’m gonna try and give him some space. Plus, and I hate to say this, I don’t think I’m the right person to talk to. I’m horrible about showing any sad emotions. My twin brother and I are bad about remaining stoic when others are crying or upset. I just don’t tend to feel a lot of sadness outside of my own and I feel like it definitely messes with me. Sure, I’m sad she passed, as she was such a lovely being but it’s hard for me to start bawling like a baby. I don’t think it is also fair to say that I was very close to her. I didn’t visit very often and when I did, I would just give her a simple pat and move on. Still, I understand other’s sadness.

Okay, lets move on since I feel like I’m just downgrading this post with my awkwardness. I’ve been hugely appreciative of the #writerslift community on Twitter. Anytime I do one I find a few more followers to flood my timelines with something interesting other than just fanart from The Witcher (that’s mainly porn-ish- get that porn of my tl!). I enjoy fanart but I don’t even follow half the people that show up on my timeline (cuz I liked The Witcher category) and this is for good, personal reason. So, I’ve been lucky enough to stumble upon some wonderful Twitter accounts full of poetry, writing tips, and altogether, a great community. I wished I’d found them before! Still, I don’t think any of my tweets will get as popular as that one I did about Tessa Violet’s song “Wishful Drinking”. That shit garnered over 350+ likes and I will never get that famous again. And I’m kinda okay with that. It was worth it for Tessa Violet.

Also, I’ve noticed an increase in nightmares in the past two days. I’ve had 3 in total. All have involved death or some sort of monster/demon attacking my family/friends and I. I can’t find much in the dream dictionary that I bought that would make sense of things and my roommate keeps suggesting I put the dream catcher I have hanging on my door handle above my head. I don’t actually believe in dream catchers; I just think they’re cute and intricate. My older brother has one tattooed on his arm. I wonder if he gets nightmares…

Let me sign off, for now. I need to get on my island on Animal Crossing: NH and let roomie raid my shops since she’s still new to her island. She’s been making hella cute outfits so it’s more of a trade-off. See y’all online~

Published by iffybiffy

Hi! I started this blog to talk about exploring deeper into my mental health! I tend to understand things better as I write or type them down so there are time where things may not make sense to you but, fear not, it's just me understanding things. if you would like to get in contact with me, email me at iffybiffy100@gmail.com. See you online-

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