8-16-20 We have furniture

I have 30 minutes to write this update.

My roommate and I were gifted 2 couches from a family member of hers and they are lovely and plush. I just hope my cat doesn’t tear them apart.

I started on some medication on Wednesday. It’s Cymbalta and I’m only being attacked by side effects right now, so no update on feeling any better. It’s only been about 5 days, so I probably won’t feel a huge difference until later. Right now, I’m feeling anxious because I have to be at work in 2 & 1/2 hours, sleepy (for some reason), shaky, and every once in a while I’m hit with the slightest bit of nausea. My neck has been getting cold which is usually what happens when I’m super anxious, so that’s only worsening my anxiety. I feel like I can’t sleep well at night, either. Last night, my roommate and I were eating dinner and I felt very lethargic all of a sudden. I almost felt like I was going to fall asleep in my food. I had to put my food away in the fridge and lay down. My stomach was hurting and I felt a bit nauseous. I kept waking up throughout the night and I wasn’t feeling any better until about 9am this morning. I’m not looking at my medication with admiration like I thought I would.

I’ve been realizing how hard it is to feel at home in this new state. I’m only a few hours away from my family but I just feel so alone in this state. I haven’t made any friends outside of work and it’s not like I can just go out. I feel like my happy place is in my room which was where it was at my old house but I had more happy places. I had options and right now it’s been hard not being able to find more. I guess I like the laundromat but, in the end, it’s a short trip. Maybe an hour and a half at best, and then I’m back in my room. I feel so antisocial which is usually me, but worse. I like having the option to go out and talk to people face to face. This virus has trapped us all. I didn’t really understand that because I could at least see family, but now they’re too far away to hang out with.

Okay, I do have to end this here. I’m 8 minutes behind on getting ready (and I know I have all the time I need to get ready but I’m still anxious, ugh). I hate the afternoon shift. After about 4 hours, I start feeling genuinely trapped at work. Anyway, see you online~

Published by iffybiffy

Hi! I started this blog to talk about exploring deeper into my mental health! I tend to understand things better as I write or type them down so there are time where things may not make sense to you but, fear not, it's just me understanding things. if you would like to get in contact with me, email me at iffybiffy100@gmail.com. See you online-

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