I have 30 minutes to write this update.
My roommate and I were gifted 2 couches from a family member of hers and they are lovely and plush. I just hope my cat doesn’t tear them apart.
I started on some medication on Wednesday. It’s Cymbalta and I’m only being attacked by side effects right now, so no update on feeling any better. It’s only been about 5 days, so I probably won’t feel a huge difference until later. Right now, I’m feeling anxious because I have to be at work in 2 & 1/2 hours, sleepy (for some reason), shaky, and every once in a while I’m hit with the slightest bit of nausea. My neck has been getting cold which is usually what happens when I’m super anxious, so that’s only worsening my anxiety. I feel like I can’t sleep well at night, either. Last night, my roommate and I were eating dinner and I felt very lethargic all of a sudden. I almost felt like I was going to fall asleep in my food. I had to put my food away in the fridge and lay down. My stomach was hurting and I felt a bit nauseous. I kept waking up throughout the night and I wasn’t feeling any better until about 9am this morning. I’m not looking at my medication with admiration like I thought I would.
I’ve been realizing how hard it is to feel at home in this new state. I’m only a few hours away from my family but I just feel so alone in this state. I haven’t made any friends outside of work and it’s not like I can just go out. I feel like my happy place is in my room which was where it was at my old house but I had more happy places. I had options and right now it’s been hard not being able to find more. I guess I like the laundromat but, in the end, it’s a short trip. Maybe an hour and a half at best, and then I’m back in my room. I feel so antisocial which is usually me, but worse. I like having the option to go out and talk to people face to face. This virus has trapped us all. I didn’t really understand that because I could at least see family, but now they’re too far away to hang out with.
Okay, I do have to end this here. I’m 8 minutes behind on getting ready (and I know I have all the time I need to get ready but I’m still anxious, ugh). I hate the afternoon shift. After about 4 hours, I start feeling genuinely trapped at work. Anyway, see you online~