I was sitting in the laundromat with my twin thinking about how easy it was for me to reach out to my friends, write a blog post, and send out a few tweets. I even had the energy to read posts from bloggers that I follow. It’s just, I almost never do that these days. I feel so bad for my friends who are in contact all the time and they aren’t too exhausted to reach out. I was sitting there wondering why I’ve changed into this shell of a person and I realized that one of the main things that’s changed are the responsibilities I’ve had throughout each job.
You see, about 4 years ago I would have been going to community college and working part time at a pub/restaurant. I was only working as a host for a couple of years and I would do, maybe, 3-4 hours a shift for 4-5 days a week. Obviously I wasn’t making very much money but I didn’t have so much on my brain. I was doing a fairly simple task everyday and I didn’t have to think about it after I left my shift. I wasn’t over anyone and I was friends with most of my coworkers. Work wasn’t draining for me. And even when I went to the daycare, afterwards, I wasn’t over anyone. Sure, the job was more stressful and I had twice the hours but I still wasn’t as stressed. I wrote a little less and then I went to work at a hotel. Once I got the hang of my job and befriended some awesome employees, including my Disney obsessed former boss, I wrote even more. I had so much less to worry about and I made time for my friends. This move and promotion at the new hotel is big. I’m over a lot of people and I’ve never been in a managerial position in my life. I’ve told coworkers what to do before when I would train them but this is way different. I’m having to be constantly vigilant and worry about everything and everyone. I’m so drained that even making posts can get complicated. If I type more than one up on my day off I end up scheduling it so it doesn’t seem like I’m ignoring my blog.
I just have to ask, does anyone else go through this? Is there any advice to give? I like my job and I’m enjoying all the fun stuff I’m learning, I just wish I had more mental energy to focus on my friends/ family and my blog.