Just 5 minutes ago I was folding my laundry and talking to my roommate about a mutual friend of ours. I won’t bore anyone with the details but the conversation led to me reviewing a question and coming to a determined answer about my sexuality. I could go back into my posts on my blog and see a pattern when I talk about sex. I don’t, often. However, when I do, it’s almost never positive. I’ve always wondered why and I even considered maybe I just hadn’t found the right person (because that’s what everyone has always told me). But this isn’t true. The answer is more simple and everything else makes sense. I never enjoyed sex because, spoiler alert, I don’t like sex. I’m asexual. Duh! I mean, this isn’t to say the answer hasn’t ever occured to me before, I just feel like it’s taking me too long to accept it. I’ve been fighting the answer for so long because everyone, including myself, has been saying I just haven’t found the right person or that some people just need to be “trained” better. No, it has never had anything to do with the quality of the person or the quality of the sex. It’s been everything to do with me not even wanting sex to begin with. I forced myself to believe I liked it and it confused my for years. Why can’t I just be comfortable like everyone else? When will I meet the person who makes me comfortable enough to want sex? Tiff, listen sweetie, it’s okay to admit it. I don’t like sex. I have no interest in having it. I have nothing against others who think and act differently than me. I just, sincerely, don’t have the patience for anyone who disagrees with me, on this realization. I am me; therefore, I know myself best. This is me. End of story.
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