Day 1 with BetterHelp

I’ve officially signed up with a counselor to take a whack at my problems. According to her bio, she focuses on both the physical and mental health of her patients. (Is that what I’d be called?) I’ve already sent her this incredibly long and slightly detailed message of my daily life and what issues IContinue reading “Day 1 with BetterHelp”

Attention Seeker~P•O•E•M

attention everyone im an attention seekeri want your attention pleasei wrote something funnyi wrote something wittyi wrote something deepso give me your attention and tell me im right attention everyone im an attention seekerbut only on my termsi made a stupid jokei had a cringey momenti acted from my self doubtso dont give me yourContinue reading “Attention Seeker~P•O•E•M”

Potential

I’ve thought about this relationship and how much potential it carries. Isn’t that such a nice word? Potential. I’ve never had a relationship with potential before. It’s so exciting that it’s scary. I know that sounds weird but that’s the best way I can describe it. I’m fascinated at how thoroughly changed I have become.Continue reading “Potential”

The forking path

I’ve always had this forked path in my head about my nephew. In one direction, I’m alive and giving him advice and helping to be a person he can open up to considering I know our family’s vast mental health problems. However, the other path is from other members of the family telling my nephewContinue reading “The forking path”

I wrote 2 poems while inebriated○●○●

2020The world is in a fucking blurBut it also feels like it’s so slow.Then I go through momentsWhere I realizeThe time and memory I just lost. FollowersDo you think I should follow her back?Or what about him?Will others follow Me back?Do I deserve this follow? Should I make this post?Should I write a reply? OhContinue reading “I wrote 2 poems while inebriated○●○●”

Good things from ‘Rona

There’s only one good thing that’s come out of this virus- at least, personally for me. That one thing is that I haven’t thought about my past issues in some time. Okay, saying this is because of the pandemic is a bit of a stretch but it’s… helped. Eh. What I mean is that, roughlyContinue reading “Good things from ‘Rona”

Here’s a piece from my dad’s old blog~

I’m trying to work on this darn book and it’s driving me insane not having internet. I want to research and find this book my dad wrote and supposedly published if my memory serves correctly. This would be such a wonderful time to have internet considering I can’t really go anywhere. I’m gonna try myContinue reading “Here’s a piece from my dad’s old blog~”