I’ve questioned myself for too long!

Just 5 minutes ago I was folding my laundry and talking to my roommate about a mutual friend of ours. I won’t bore anyone with the details but the conversation led to me reviewing a question and coming to a determined answer about my sexuality. I could go back into my posts on my blogContinue reading “I’ve questioned myself for too long!”

May 5th 2021

I know I haven’t posted in a while. And I’m actually at work right now so I shouldn’t be posting but I just think I needed to get these feelings off my chest. The past month has been hell on me mentally and physically. I practically live at work. I’ve come to dislike going toContinue reading “May 5th 2021”

A weekend off~ Finally!

After months of working hard and being patient, my boss gave me a weekend off. Honestly, I was getting a little impatient. Normally, I don’t request weekends off because I don’t mind what days I have off. I’ll be doing most of the same things no matter what day. I don’t go out and partyContinue reading “A weekend off~ Finally!”

3/30/21

I don’t understand how people can just express themselves. Emotions are hard enough to understand, let alone tell others those feelings. My therapist is gonna get a load of all this on Friday. All our sessions have just been me talking about everything but my feelings and I get the feeling she’s getting tired ofContinue reading “3/30/21”

3/6/21 I have the zoomies, thanks Paxel

I know I haven’t been doing a lot of actual journal posts but that’s because I’ve done so little in my life. I pretty much work, sleep, and take a shower every 1-2 business days. I’m actually still glad I cut my hair short because it’s so much less to manage. My depression is reallyContinue reading “3/6/21 I have the zoomies, thanks Paxel”

Smoking and non smoking

I get it, some people enjoy smoking. I like to light the butt too but I certainly understand when I shouldn’t or can’t do it. I work in a 100% smoke free hotel. That means if you step foot in the building with a lit anything, I can charge you $250. And guests know this.Continue reading “Smoking and non smoking”

How do people just let go?

Some of you may know that I’ve been doing therapy for a little while since I moved. I’ve got some trauma in my life that I’ve struggled to let go and let’s be honest, I have no idea how to actually do that. I keep thinking I have to physically let go or something toContinue reading “How do people just let go?”

Work wor….. zzzzzz

I was asked by a new friend whether or not I enjoyed overtime. Answer: in healthy does. Right now, I’m tired and the rain is just making it worse. Work has been good so far. I’ve only got to survive two more hours and then I can sleep until tomorrow. Normally Sunday’s are hectic becauseContinue reading “Work wor….. zzzzzz”