May 5th 2021

I know I haven’t posted in a while. And I’m actually at work right now so I shouldn’t be posting but I just think I needed to get these feelings off my chest. The past month has been hell on me mentally and physically. I practically live at work. I’ve come to dislike going toContinue reading “May 5th 2021”

How do people just let go?

Some of you may know that I’ve been doing therapy for a little while since I moved. I’ve got some trauma in my life that I’ve struggled to let go and let’s be honest, I have no idea how to actually do that. I keep thinking I have to physically let go or something toContinue reading “How do people just let go?”

8-7-20 We have Internet!

We have Internet and I need a haircut! But I’m struggling to figure out how short I need to go to start getting my layers to a single layer. Right now I’m currently trying to watch CSI on Hulu for the first time in many moons. I used up all of my Hotspot during myContinue reading “8-7-20 We have Internet!”

7-2-20 Part 1 of Assessment

As I said in a previous post, I was going to get psychologically assessed to help to determine what the hell I’m dealing with. I won’t go far into detail because there are some things better left between the doc and I. Anyway, I went and saw her yesterday and it was the most pleasantContinue reading “7-2-20 Part 1 of Assessment”

3-2-20

I’ve always known that I have pretty bad anxiety over important events, work, breaking any kind of code, any kind of closeness, money, and time. I’m especially anxious when it comes to time. That’s why, I would love the ability to control time. It seems like a wonderful way to control all of the thingsContinue reading “3-2-20”

Are we all just making it until we get to whatever we’re looking forward to?

Sometimes when I’m really stressed or upset, I like to think about something to look forward to. When I worked at McDonalds back in 2016, I used to imagine my drive back home and I’d get all excited and it helped get me through the day. I’ve done this so much that I gotta wonderContinue reading “Are we all just making it until we get to whatever we’re looking forward to?”