7-2-20 Part 1 of Assessment

As I said in a previous post, I was going to get psychologically assessed to help to determine what the hell I’m dealing with. I won’t go far into detail because there are some things better left between the doc and I. Anyway, I went and saw her yesterday and it was the most pleasantContinue reading “7-2-20 Part 1 of Assessment”

Finally starting to feel up

I know I usually post a lot when I’m down but I was just too down last week. My birthday was just me choosing to be alone so I could nurse my mental wounds with Seagrams and Marlboros. I did get some money from my parents which turned into groceries. I finally felt like I’dContinue reading “Finally starting to feel up”

Is depression a form of molasses?

Because I can practically feel it taking over the blood in my body. Everything feels so slow, even the amazing experiences I’ve had, today. I’ve been wanting to make content all day but every time I type up something, I just want to chuck my laptop across the room. Nothing I type feels good! IContinue reading “Is depression a form of molasses?”

Have you heard of Maladaptive Daydreaming?

Between the ages of 5 and 10, I lived in a very old house where there are a few indentations in the walls from when I used to lightly but repeatedly bang my head while I daydreamed. I later found out, through a night’s worth of research, that this was a common symptom of somethingContinue reading “Have you heard of Maladaptive Daydreaming?”

A moment of clarity

How long will this last? Who knows. All I know is that I’m taking advantage of it because, as per my last post, I’m tired and I’m tired of making posts with such negative (although true- I cannot deny myself of my emotions) content. Earlier today, as I was clicking through link after link ofContinue reading “A moment of clarity”

New Job, New Work Anxiety

With every new job I get, the anxiety of not knowing what I’m doing or not doing it good enough comes along with it! Tomorrow, I will be on my own for the first time and I told myself on the drive home “When you get home, make a list of all the steps youContinue reading “New Job, New Work Anxiety”

Something I wrote on 8/15/19

Dodie has me thinking, today. I’ve had to catch myself in conversation with Monroe because I’m not paying her 100% of my attention. Bad me! Let me explain. In Dodie’s book “Secrets for the Mad…”, she describes how little she feels during her outings with her friends and how it affected how she absorbed theContinue reading “Something I wrote on 8/15/19”