3/30/21

I don’t understand how people can just express themselves. Emotions are hard enough to understand, let alone tell others those feelings. My therapist is gonna get a load of all this on Friday. All our sessions have just been me talking about everything but my feelings and I get the feeling she’s getting tired ofContinue reading “3/30/21”

How do people just let go?

Some of you may know that I’ve been doing therapy for a little while since I moved. I’ve got some trauma in my life that I’ve struggled to let go and let’s be honest, I have no idea how to actually do that. I keep thinking I have to physically let go or something toContinue reading “How do people just let go?”

My Spectrum of Dreams-Mature Content

Last night I had a couple of dreams that left me with a whirlwind of emotions. In my first one, I was hanging around the wrong man and he’d get on my nerves. We were dating but I had my eyes on an old coworker I used to work at a pub with. The guyContinue reading “My Spectrum of Dreams-Mature Content”

3-2-20

I’ve always known that I have pretty bad anxiety over important events, work, breaking any kind of code, any kind of closeness, money, and time. I’m especially anxious when it comes to time. That’s why, I would love the ability to control time. It seems like a wonderful way to control all of the thingsContinue reading “3-2-20”

Acting may not be my strong suit but boy is it fun!

My friend Nigel from NERDtorch is making a whole ass movie! And it looks legit! If you want to, you can check out his insta @nitrohotfire. He’s been posting vlogs of behind the scenes about said movie under his Vampire film story. He’s also got a few sneak peak shots that look pretty fly. HehContinue reading “Acting may not be my strong suit but boy is it fun!”

Flip Flops in my mind!

You ever go through a day where you can’t attach yourself to one emotion? If the answer is yes, than you just might keep reading. Who knows, these days. Even if you can’t relate, there’s still a chance you’re interested. Either way, I’ll continue explaining why I’ve brought you here today to ask this agonizingContinue reading “Flip Flops in my mind!”

Finally starting to feel up

I know I usually post a lot when I’m down but I was just too down last week. My birthday was just me choosing to be alone so I could nurse my mental wounds with Seagrams and Marlboros. I did get some money from my parents which turned into groceries. I finally felt like I’dContinue reading “Finally starting to feel up”