Down 4-14-20

Nothings worse to me than starting the day feeling up but not even going 2 hours in and going down. I walked like my counselor suggested and on the walk I told myself I needed to focus on me and not daydream. So I compromised and daydreamed that I was hanging out with Henry CavillContinue reading “Down 4-14-20”

4-13-20

I’m writing at 1:48am and I’m sorry if this has a lot of errors in spelling. I’m avoiding turning on too many lights in the house so I won’t wake up Sarah or Grayson. So, I’m caught between two directions right now. And I mean right this second. Basically, the two directions are negative andContinue reading “4-13-20”

Day 1 with BetterHelp

I’ve officially signed up with a counselor to take a whack at my problems. According to her bio, she focuses on both the physical and mental health of her patients. (Is that what I’d be called?) I’ve already sent her this incredibly long and slightly detailed message of my daily life and what issues IContinue reading “Day 1 with BetterHelp”

Potential

I’ve thought about this relationship and how much potential it carries. Isn’t that such a nice word? Potential. I’ve never had a relationship with potential before. It’s so exciting that it’s scary. I know that sounds weird but that’s the best way I can describe it. I’m fascinated at how thoroughly changed I have become.Continue reading “Potential”

I wrote 2 poems while inebriated○●○●

2020The world is in a fucking blurBut it also feels like it’s so slow.Then I go through momentsWhere I realizeThe time and memory I just lost. FollowersDo you think I should follow her back?Or what about him?Will others follow Me back?Do I deserve this follow? Should I make this post?Should I write a reply? OhContinue reading “I wrote 2 poems while inebriated○●○●”

Here’s a piece from my dad’s old blog~

I’m trying to work on this darn book and it’s driving me insane not having internet. I want to research and find this book my dad wrote and supposedly published if my memory serves correctly. This would be such a wonderful time to have internet considering I can’t really go anywhere. I’m gonna try myContinue reading “Here’s a piece from my dad’s old blog~”