10/17/20 The Support We All Need

The confidence in myself that I have been feeling this past month mirrors the confidence I develop after 3 shots of vodka. All that minus the vomiting and lack of limb control. I’m mentally stable and it’s so crazy to think I didn’t have this power before. What was stopping me from walking into aContinue reading “10/17/20 The Support We All Need”

Am I the copycat?

I’m going to start this post off with a story from my infant hood. Basically, my twin brother and I would get into a lot of trouble by sneaking out of our room and knocking over the trash can to reap the treasures inside. Oftentimes I would hear our parents coming and split, leaving myContinue reading “Am I the copycat?”

8-7-20 We have Internet!

We have Internet and I need a haircut! But I’m struggling to figure out how short I need to go to start getting my layers to a single layer. Right now I’m currently trying to watch CSI on Hulu for the first time in many moons. I used up all of my Hotspot during myContinue reading “8-7-20 We have Internet!”

1 Year Anniversary

I’ve officially been on this blog for 1 year and one day. I didn’t realize the anniversary was yesterday until just now so I’m currently pretending the French Style Cheesecake Mousse I bought from Walmart is me celebrating rather than me splurging. Hey, they’re only 5.25 oz so not much. But enough. I’d feel sickContinue reading “1 Year Anniversary”

7-9-20 part 2 of Assessment

(Warning, yes, I’ve totally been drinking a bit) Good evening, readers, fellow internet friends, and people I’ve met in person. I’m here to relay to you my diagnosis from the Psychological Assessment Center. It appears I am suffering from PTSD and Anxiety (phobia related and general), and Depression. I can finally stop self-diagnosing and assuming.Continue reading “7-9-20 part 2 of Assessment”

Anxiety about time

I’m not sure when this started, maybe when I was in elementary or middle school, but I seem to recall being petrified of being late. Or missing the bus. As I’ve grown, the thought of being late to things, work especially, has taken ahold of my alarm system in my head and on my phone.Continue reading “Anxiety about time”

A Mental Assessment

I’ve posted before that I’ve been using BetterHelp for therapy and I talked with my therapist about taking medication. I’ve done this before but I went to a general practitioner for this. So, the medication I took was not very on point. I took Escitalopram and Lexapro which are basically the same thing. My therapistContinue reading “A Mental Assessment”

Day 1 with BetterHelp

I’ve officially signed up with a counselor to take a whack at my problems. According to her bio, she focuses on both the physical and mental health of her patients. (Is that what I’d be called?) I’ve already sent her this incredibly long and slightly detailed message of my daily life and what issues IContinue reading “Day 1 with BetterHelp”