May 5th 2021

I know I haven’t posted in a while. And I’m actually at work right now so I shouldn’t be posting but I just think I needed to get these feelings off my chest. The past month has been hell on me mentally and physically. I practically live at work. I’ve come to dislike going toContinue reading “May 5th 2021”

Changes throughout my jobs

I was sitting in the laundromat with my twin thinking about how easy it was for me to reach out to my friends, write a blog post, and send out a few tweets. I even had the energy to read posts from bloggers that I follow. It’s just, I almost never do that these days.Continue reading “Changes throughout my jobs”

3/30/21

I don’t understand how people can just express themselves. Emotions are hard enough to understand, let alone tell others those feelings. My therapist is gonna get a load of all this on Friday. All our sessions have just been me talking about everything but my feelings and I get the feeling she’s getting tired ofContinue reading “3/30/21”

3/6/21 I have the zoomies, thanks Paxel

I know I haven’t been doing a lot of actual journal posts but that’s because I’ve done so little in my life. I pretty much work, sleep, and take a shower every 1-2 business days. I’m actually still glad I cut my hair short because it’s so much less to manage. My depression is reallyContinue reading “3/6/21 I have the zoomies, thanks Paxel”

I was Denied for Life Insurance because of My Mental Health

At the end of last year I applied for life insurance because of Covid-19 scaring the crap out of me and they told me they were gonna get in contact with my doctor. I was already told I might get denied because I smoke every once in a while and I was okay with that.Continue reading “I was Denied for Life Insurance because of My Mental Health”

How do people just let go?

Some of you may know that I’ve been doing therapy for a little while since I moved. I’ve got some trauma in my life that I’ve struggled to let go and let’s be honest, I have no idea how to actually do that. I keep thinking I have to physically let go or something toContinue reading “How do people just let go?”

Detachment

For as many years as I can remember, I’ve been detached and vaguely empathetic. I didn’t want to get close to others and have to open up about my issues. For a long time I thought I could actually live like that. I could, somehow, find a good person to date and we could beContinue reading “Detachment”

Jumping back in before I work

I just got back from having 3 days off during, probably, the worst time to have off. One of my best friends has just graduated college and I couldn’t wait to celebrate this amazing milestone with her! I almost wasn’t able to go due to being severely understaffed, so I appreciate my boss letting meContinue reading “Jumping back in before I work”

Good morning!

Hello! So I’ve been a bit down recently but with some love from friends and family and sleep (of course) I’m feeling much better. I’m off of work today so I’ll be cleaning the house which will be a great reminder that I no longer live in the dump I used to. I can sayContinue reading “Good morning!”